How strange life can be sometimes. Recently my writing confidence has grown in stature due in no small way to the lovely comments received from all over the world about my musings. That has been a very steep road to climb due to my inability to accept compliments for what they are.
So, it seems entirely fitting to my inner ever-blaming self that from a high of 250 hits a day my blog has received 0 hits in the last 2 days. Lots of soul searching and claims of 'I was robbed' later I actually came to a conclusion that surprised the hell out of me because i just thought 'who the hell am I writing for?.'
Truth is, I am writing for me, for my enjoyment and my relaxation, everything I write is my opinion and my view and if no-one wants to read it then that's really OK with me, the important thing is it's my statement and my views and my work and it isn't written for waves of appreciation from adoring fans, it's because i feel the need to write. That in itself is reason enough to continue and enjoy what I do. I read that Google has altered the parameters in some way as to the popularity and search priorities of sites and it has something to do with penguins.. well this is one penguin that won't be losing any sleep about less visitors outside his cage!.
Finding time to write is increasingly difficult for me these days, there are many things going on around me and they all demand my attention, I guess it's the curse of the self-employed. I have been self-employed for 22 years now and it's the toughest I have known it, people are shopping around and looking for bargains and using their money wisely, although that said there are still people out there that can and will spend without too much thought. I try not to get involved in politics as the whole industry depresses me, I hate lies and politicians have made lying in public a recognised occupation. It would be so refreshing to hear the truth that 'they think we can't handle' a little more often but i guess the pattern is set.
So, that off my chest I will sit back and grab my coffee cup after writing this, swill down my last few gulps and head for my office and with no fear of anyone opening this document i can confess to all my sins and be released of all my burdens in life with no fear of them ever being discovered, even though it would make Christian Gray blush.
Then again, if someone DOES read this it may be more prudent to just say thank you for bothering and please do slip by again... or should i just make a run for it while no-one is looking and take those secrets along with me forever ? !
So, it seems entirely fitting to my inner ever-blaming self that from a high of 250 hits a day my blog has received 0 hits in the last 2 days. Lots of soul searching and claims of 'I was robbed' later I actually came to a conclusion that surprised the hell out of me because i just thought 'who the hell am I writing for?.'
Truth is, I am writing for me, for my enjoyment and my relaxation, everything I write is my opinion and my view and if no-one wants to read it then that's really OK with me, the important thing is it's my statement and my views and my work and it isn't written for waves of appreciation from adoring fans, it's because i feel the need to write. That in itself is reason enough to continue and enjoy what I do. I read that Google has altered the parameters in some way as to the popularity and search priorities of sites and it has something to do with penguins.. well this is one penguin that won't be losing any sleep about less visitors outside his cage!.
Finding time to write is increasingly difficult for me these days, there are many things going on around me and they all demand my attention, I guess it's the curse of the self-employed. I have been self-employed for 22 years now and it's the toughest I have known it, people are shopping around and looking for bargains and using their money wisely, although that said there are still people out there that can and will spend without too much thought. I try not to get involved in politics as the whole industry depresses me, I hate lies and politicians have made lying in public a recognised occupation. It would be so refreshing to hear the truth that 'they think we can't handle' a little more often but i guess the pattern is set.
So, that off my chest I will sit back and grab my coffee cup after writing this, swill down my last few gulps and head for my office and with no fear of anyone opening this document i can confess to all my sins and be released of all my burdens in life with no fear of them ever being discovered, even though it would make Christian Gray blush.
Then again, if someone DOES read this it may be more prudent to just say thank you for bothering and please do slip by again... or should i just make a run for it while no-one is looking and take those secrets along with me forever ? !
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