Shadow Of Life.

My life is but a shadow.
I exist but in reality there is no me.
I am there because I am seen
I am seen and hence expected

But, there is no me.
If i disappear there would be no change
The same things would occur
I make no difference

It is not lonely.
It is more real than loneliness
A sense of lost.
A sense of no direction.

I fear that i am swallowed whole
Irrational.. if you are not I
A pitiful existence
From a pitiful man.

Words cannot console such thoughts
A mistake so many people make.
Only strength of my mind and spirit
Stand a mortal chance. 

But I weaken.
The reckoning is due
When your worth is in question
Why should this wretch be saved.

I look for guidance
I look for reason
I look for love.
I find only my shadow.

But it's not really there. Is it?.