The Life And Times.

Friday, 30 November 2012

Ascension of thoughts

That quiet air of solitude that seeks a willing mate,
That loneliness so harsh so rude can seal a persons fate,
Belief that life has better days has yet to show it's face,
So lost inside that sullen haze that brought you to this place.

Of things that people care about and harbor to their breast
A fool would dare to scream and shout then judge you with the rest
Alas the heart has limitations weakened by a troubled mind
Making more of situations than the facts would ever find

Strength has many different guises, all that glitters isn't gold
Staying put leaves no surprises living life as if on hold
Raise the bar and make a break from ghosts you've been forever haunted
Life will give if you can live those dreams that you have always wanted.

 















Thursday, 29 November 2012

Its a fact..


I have seen cloudy I have seen stormy, I have seen cloudy and stormy....but it only takes one ray of sunshine to change your day.

Sunday, 25 November 2012

I.

I can smile
I can laugh out loud
I can cry
I can please the crowd
I can hear
I can dream a dream
I can talk
I can feel it seems
I can run
I can get upset
I can hurt
I can end up wet
I can dance
I can play a tune
I can shout
I can be consumed
I can do I can do
I can tell you this is true
But is it true?
Am I who you know or knew?
Or is it that the real me,
Is not there to see?
Or chooses not to be seen.
I can choose.



Wednesday, 21 November 2012

Recycled.

The hollow of that empty shell
Now void of life but stands to tell
A lifeless carcass hard as tusk
Devoid of heart as upturned husk

As empty as one mindless act
That lures to death in sordid pact
So cold just likened winters face
No life nor favours given grace

Such fear that haunts our waking seconds
Unknown destiny that beckons
Face the bell that rings our name
Life and times the dying game.

I understand my mortal self
My worth not judged on merely wealth
And life must have a journey's end
Embrace it as you would a friend.






  











 

Saturday, 17 November 2012

It's a fact..

Thoughts are what make you who you are, the way you translate them into words make you what people think you are...

Negative thoughts.

A dance without a rhythm
A song that's left unsung
A heart that's never given
Refusing to be won

A night that never see's the dawn
A love that's not returned
The soul that wonders so forlorn
From lesson's never learned

A cry for help unheeded
That echoes through the mist
A friend when they are needed
So often dearly missed

The weight of expectation
A transient that stays
So pay them no attention
Just keep below their gaze.

























 




Monday, 12 November 2012

The End Of Time.

The old clock on the wall made an almost 'clunk like' noise as the pendulum swung side to side, the thick layer of dust across every flat surface of it's design made it look as if the mahogany had faded in the bright sunlight, the dial was a pale yellow instead of golden yellow and parts of the Roman style numbers had almost faded beyond recognition, the brass pendulum was tainted black through years of neglect, the lock on the cabinet where the key was placed to rewind this worn time piece stood out from the rest of the clock as it was the only area that received constant attention from it's daily winding, the wood around the lock had worn to the same shape as the human fingers that tended it daily as the clunk of the pendulum broke the silence in the room every second.
The room was dark, a single window about 8 feet high drew in what light there was from outside and cast a long ray of sunlight across it which hit the clock at the same time of day, day in day out. As the sun stretched  it's fingers across the room at a sharp angle from the window the dust could be seen clearly leaping and dancing in it's wake like bee's around the sweetest honey ever imagined, an old bookcase stood in the darkened corner to the right of the window, strategically placed to never see the sunlight that had so ravaged the ageing time peace, it carried leather bound books that had not had their spines exercised in 3 score years, again the dust claimed every straight edge as it's own, in some cases moths had eaten away the edges of the leather and left just a row of pages squeezed between it's neighbours rendering it all but useless for purpose. The case itself was made of Oak and as such stood firm if well weathered by the constant bombardment of dust from the array of literature it had played host to all these years. Next to the bookcase a huge fireplace stood just below the tick tocking of the old clock, the source of much of the dust over the years, the ash from the last fire to be lit in it's bowels was but the finest powder that just disintegrated at the merest movement of air in the house so long ago had it been used to fill the room with warmth.
On the mantle piece above the fire sat two framed black and white photographs of a man and a woman, clearly taken in the early 1920's judging by their hairstyles and dress, the woman looking straight at the camera over her left shoulder with a huge bun of hair tied up on her head and vertically striped dress with high lacy collar and small pursed lips highlighted and accentuated by the lipstick she wore, the man was also looking to his left but was in a more relaxed position, leaning against a stool he wore a pin striped suit with tie and waistcoat, the chain from his pocket watch could be clearly seen and his thumb was placed in a relaxed nonchalant manner in his waistcoat on the opposite side to the watch. He had a small moustache and a long drawn face with hair that was oiled back off his forehead and a distinct straight parting could be seen on the left side of his head, the two photo's had a white card surround that was now like the clock showing signs of fading and only added to the vintage look of the photos, the dust had also played it's part by obscuring much of the pictures from view.
Further into the room the settee was still draped with lap blankets and cushions, the old curved over arms belied it's age, looking out of place with the rest of the antiques in the room due to it's sought after shape in the modern world, but it too, like all the other contents was a hive of dust. Woodworm had taken it's toll on the softer wood around the arms and the legs of the settee, it stood precariously on it's legs waiting for the inevitable day it would simply fall to the carpeted floor, the betrayal of it's plight lay around each leg where a sawdust like powder sat in almost a perfect circle around the once carved support, it was but a matter of time before the inevitable. A huge hearth rug lay between the settee and the fireplace, of all the items in the room this had suffered the most, it had been ravaged by dust mites and moths and was scarcely recognisable in it's current form, yet in it's heyday it propelled the scene of the brave huntsmen and hounds traversing a huge ditch in pursuit of it's quarry the fox, the horses were captured mid jump with the huntsman clearly shouting "Tally Ho" in support of it's equine ally, though all that remained of the scene on the rug were the hooves of the horses, part of the greying moody skies and in an almost bitter irony of fate the fearful face of the fleeing fox still seen despite it's tormentors demise from the ravages of time.
From the high ceiling of the room a chandelier hung as testament to the wealth of the previous inhabitants, dirty, uncared for and in danger of joining the disintegrated settee at any moment due to the failing joints and screws keeping it suspended in it's lofty position. Behind the settee where the light had not been for close on 100 years lay an out stretched pin stripe suit and next to it a dress with lacy collar and vertical stripes, the dress still worn by it's owner as was the suit, yet they had long departed the world if not the room, the pocket watch still visible and intact in the waistcoat pocket and the neat bun of hair on the woman grotesquely parted from the skull of it's owner in one piece lay slightly to the side of her head, the two skeletal hands still bearing rings were intertwined as only death and decay could leave them, side by side untouched for 60 years. A single brown singe mark in the chest of both sets of clothes could clearly be seen even after all this time, gaping holes that told a story of the foulest of play this room had born witness to, the decaying twisted remains of hair, teeth and dried brown stained flesh a reminder of a gruesome past that was still being played out.
Just then the long brass handle of the oak door slowly descended, barely a noise was heard as two feet emerged from the other side of the door in the dim light, shuffling in old worn out slippers with barely any sole left on them, a bedraggled but suited man with a tie and waistcoat and long flowing white hair emerged through the doorway and shuffled towards the old fireplace, once there he stood looking at the old clock, after a few seconds he raised his hand to the clock and placed a key into the small door his fingers fitting exactly into the smoothed out grooves around said lock, this was indeed the clocks master. He took another small key from his waistcoat and just as he did a folded piece of paper dropped to the floor and landed on the emaciated hearth rug, the old man bent over and picked it up, his dull fingers struggled to open up the fine paper from it's fold, once opened it revealed a sorrowful note of undying love aimed solely at the reader, a statement of love yet regret that it was a love that could never be fulfilled or recognised in life. The old man stood for a few moments as if reading the letter for the first time, small but distinct tears welled up in the corners of his eyes, one tear dropping just below the signature of the letters author, he fumbled in his waistcoat pocket while the sound of muffled sobs could be heard, the most sorrowful sound imagined, he drew his hand out of his pocket and there he held a small black and white photograph, it was of a woman with her hair in a bun and a small mouth accentuated by her lipstick, this time she was wearing a flowered dress still with high lacy collar, the picture shook in the old mans hand, the sobs became that much more audible and sorrowful, he stood in the same place just below the clock for what seemed like an age, his old craggy shaky hands replaced the letter and the picture from whence they had come and again he reached up to the clock only this time he did not have the key in his hand, instead he reached down into the cabinet disturbing the swing of the pendulum as he did and stopping the clocks movement at that very moment in time, as his hand withdrew from the cabinet the setting sun was low enough to catch a glimpse of a silver revolver, it's mechanism cocked and ready, the old man raised the pistol and fired.
The room fell completely silent.

Saturday, 10 November 2012

The great and the good.

Matters arising in this meeting
To whom it may concern
A story to tell ever so fleeting
Something we maybe could learn.

An African tribe is dying of thirst
The Tiger has numbers so few
Not for a minute have we seen the worst
Is there something that we all can do?

I will swear my allegience to the African tribe!
The Tigers will get my support!
A few politicians I know I can bribe
Donations can always be sought

The Whales are hurting we must put it right
And monkeys in deepest Peru?
The Amazon forest will go overnight
Oh! we must stop that happening to.

Let's hold a huge party my friends they will come
We can make it a massive crusade
Our riches and fame we will pool all as one
Together we'll call it Fame-Aid

We can raise all our profiles a wonderful thing
Have pictures of us with our friends
Showing the work our money can bring
The potential for this never ends

But, one moment folks of the jettest of sets
This meeting is far from yet over
None of you seem to be edging your bets
This side of the White Cliffs of Dover

The homeless in boxes on cold winter corners
The youngsters with holes in their shoes
The funeral of parents with children their mourners
Not worthy of such headline news.

No glamour in alleys with discarded needles
No purchase from something so seedy
No man of the moment or man of the people
To rescue the plight of such needy

So one resolution I must put across
To you all with the ear of the press
The needy are hurting with similar loss
Though glamour is short I confess.














Thursday, 8 November 2012

Live it.

Break those chains kick those doors
Take back all that should be yours
Stand your ground and don't relent
Say it like they know it's meant

Be as one with who you are
Shine as bright as any star,
Reach into your inner being
Care not what the world is seeing

One more thing before I go
Something we all need to know
Don't hold back and grab each chance
Life's your first and only dance.


One good deed..

The merry-go-round that is business continues apace, the phone is ringing off the hook and customers are their usual impatient selves, (God love 'em) we have just had a lady in who had just spent over £350.00 on her front drivers side brakes with an "approved RAC" garage, nothing wrong with the fitting of the brake components but the top wishbone which connects the suspension to the chassis was in a dreadful state, almost worn out and dropping off, hence the new brakes were binding and getting hot as the whole wheel was moving, I am afraid i had to break the good news to her and said it needs doing at the earliest opportunity.  I always wonder about garages that seek affiliation to a trade body as it suggests to me that the usual word of mouth way of getting work is a closed door to them, not always admittedly but where there is smoke...
As a mechanic of all manners of vehicles, trucks, machinery etc for the last 27 years i thought i had seen most things, but rest assured you never know everything and people can still shock you. last week we had a customer call in with an immaculate BMW 3 series, he was on his way to his holiday caravan in Aberystwyth West Wales, he said his steering was vibrating really badly, this being on a Friday afternoon amid the ensuing chaos we were not that keen to inspect yet another job, but as always my conscience got the better of me and we got him in the workshops somehow. A quick inspection and a readout from the laser temperature gun showed a fault on the drivers side front brake calliper, it was reading 178 degrees so was obviously critically overheating, just a few more miles and it would have been the fire brigade needed, not our services!.
I sent the couple off for a walk around the town and and pointed them in the direction of the best cafe and said we will be a couple of hours.  Much sighing and missing skin from the hands later and the still extremely hot calliper was removed and a new one fitted, for good measure we checked both sides so that the braking on the front would be nice and even.
Our man duly returned with said wife a couple of hours later and after the bill was settled off they set for their caravan holiday in Aberystwyth, albeit later than planned.
That as they say would be that normally, but towards the end of last week an older gentleman that i kind of recognised parked a little hatchback car to the side of the yard and started to walk towards me with a box of Beck's beer in his arms, I walked towards him and said "Hi" still not completely sure who he was, he handed me the box of beer and I said err....thank you, "That's for you and the lads for saving our holiday weekend in Aberystwyth" and as he said that the penny dropped.. "oh my life " i said, "thank you so much, sorry I didn't recognise you without the BMW" "No that's OK he said i have my wife's car so its probably confusing you".
So having shaken his hand i returned to the workshops triumphantly bearing gifts...none of which could obviously be consumed on the premises but its the thought that counts and we have obviously made a new friend !.